My future, what dream?

 My future, what dream?

'How do you see yourself 15 years from now?"

I am not afraid of questions, I don't get scared of getting asked because I think quick on my feet, I take pride in the fact that I can answer any question that I get asked without a second thought. But this particular question makes me ponder, it is a question I can't answer for the life of me. Who will I be once I grow up?

In 15 years, I would be 30. When I was a kid I always imagined that by the time I'd reach my age now, I would have life figured all out, that the path would be laid out for me. Instead, I am shrouded in confusion and doubt as to who will I be. To tell the truth, the future scares me, I am
scared of the uncertainty the journey of life brings, I am scared that one day all my peers would have successful lives and that I would be left behind. I am scared for the simple fact that I can't predict the future, if there is one thing I picked up from all of my experiences is that anything can happen. The unknown frightens me, what if I never truly figure what I want to be when I grow up, I am ashamed that people my age know their path in life and here I am clueless, so I just say careers that sound safe like doctor or lawyer.

Life is a mystery, and all I know is, no matter how uncertain I want my future to be, I want to do it my way. That I'd solve life's puzzle on my own pace and with no regrets, so to me 15 years from now, I hope you'll look back at this post and laugh at how clueless you once were.

References:

https://www.istockphoto.com/photos/self-doubt

https://news.uchicago.edu/story/how-embracing-uncertainty-can-help-policymakers-during-pandemic